If I Could Give You One Piece of Advice.. {Life after an ed}

Omg.

It’s been so long since I last posted I forgot my word press password. Good thing it’s automatically saved.

You probably haven’t missed me because blogging is so fetch right now that I’m sure you have an over abundance of material to read. I give serious kudos to those bloggers that post every day. Like, hook me up with some of your creative juices.

I’m not saying that I’ve lost my edge, I just feel like I have nothing to write about anymore. The main reason I began blogging was so that I could focus my time on something other than my ed. Turns out focusing on writing about my ED ending up being the most helpful tool in my recovery. This is not me saying good-bye to blogging, but it is me saying good bye to my demons for good as they no longer haunt me.

To those readers, who read my blog looking for help/support/inspiration on ED topics, if I could give you one piece of advice it would be to take everything you read on the internet with a grain of salt. Including this blog, in fact. I can’t tell you how many times I was mislead by so called “experts” on instagram, or became infatuated with someone’s recovery/health/fitness story and tried to mimic their every move. Guess where that got me? Absolutely no where, most times it brought me to a state even worse then when I started.

I thought about writing about a whole post updating y’all on my current life situation but I feel like that wouldn’t do anyone any good, how do you even know I am telling the truth? I will say life is so good right now. I never thought I would stop obsessing over food and I never thought I would truly be able to love my body but I did and I do. And the only person I have to thank is myself. I’m not going to sit here and tell you that you will feel this way one day because I don’t know if you will. The odd’s are against us. Skinny is cool, health is the new black and followers on instagram is the new famous. I do however, believe that everyone has the power inside to get better.

Thank-you to everyone who read my thoughts and took the time to show their love and support. My heart goes out to everyone that struggles with body image. Don’t struggle in silence and don’t be afraid to ask for help, we all need it sometimes ♥

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PS- you’re beautiful, yes YOU.

eeeeeeats xo

{VEGAN} Blueberry Chocolate Chip Cookies

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Teaming up with my favourite supplement company today, North Coast Naturals. Head over to there blog HERE for the recipe.

Skinny Chocolate Cupcakes w| Cream Cheese Frosting

You guuuuys.

I’m back.

And better than ever,

with cupcakes..

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Chocolate-y, moist, waist friendly cupcakes. Chyeaaaaah.

I hope everyone’s summer has been treating them as good as mine was to me. Blog post coming up on my life sitch soon, but for now, we bake treats.

I swear these are the least healthiest tasting treats I’ve made thus far. So please, feel free to conduct a little research for me and give one to your grandma (who would sh*t a brick if she knew people were baking without butter/white flour/sugar these days) and holla back at your girl with her verdict.

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Makes 12 cupcakes

2 ripe bananas
2 eggs
1/4 cup coconut oil, melted
1/4 cup almond milk (I used unsweetened vanilla)
1/4 cup of protein powder or pb2
1/4 cup cocoa powder
1/3 cup coconut flour
1/2 tsp baking soda
1 tsp baking powder
1/4 cup sweetener of choice (I used stevia)
1 tsp vanilla bean paste
dash of sea salt
sprinkles (optional, but highly recommended.. duh)

preheat oven to 350. beat all wet ingredients together until smooth then add dry, blend again until combined. pour into lined muffin tins. bake for 22 minutes. let cool completely before frosting or trying to peel lining off!

Cream Cheese Frosting
1/4 cup plain greek yogurt (I used 2% plain)
2 tbsp cream cheese
dash of vanilla
sweetener of choice

whip all ingredients together until smooth.

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I store mine in the fridge and try not to eat the whole batch in one day.

Don’t worry if you end up eating the whole batch, because like,

they’re healthy.

eatsfromtheoilpatch ♥

Double Chocolate Buckwheat Bread

Thought: Who doesn’t like bread?

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I mean honestly, you can say that you don’t like bread.. you can say that you don’t like carbs.. but we know you’re lying. In my opinion I don’t think there is anything better than a warm, fresh slice of bread smeared with butter. (Well, maybe fresh bedding but the two are close tie.)

I feel kind of bad for bread. He’s gotten such a bad rep lately, people have like totally cut him out their lives. It doesn’t have to be this way you know?

Bread has more potential than given it’s give credit for. Take this recipe for example, it is crammed full of nutritious superfood benefits:

Flax and Chia Seed: great source of omega 3 (an essential fatty acid) and fibre.

Cacao: (not to be confused with cocoa) contains powerful antioxidants as well as the micronutrients magnesium and iron.

Walnuts: have anti-inflammatory and anti-oxidant benefits and can help protect against cardio vascular disease and metabolic syndrome.

Buckwheat Flour: Buckwheat is a fruit seed making it a good substitution for those with a wheat intolerance. Buckwheat flour compared to refined white flour has a significantly lower effect on our blood sugar.

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Makes 1 Loaf

1 1/3 cup buckwheat flour
1/3 cup raw cacao powder
1/3 cup North Coast Naturals chocolate whey (sub your choice of protein powder or use more flour/cacao)
2 tbsp ground flax seed + 6 tbsp of water to make flax egg
1/4 tsp himalayan sea salt
1 tsp baking powder
1 tsp vanilla
1/2 cup dark buckwheat honey (sub your choice of sweetener)
2 ripe bananas, mashed
1/2 cup almond milk

toppings:
2 tbsp cacao nibs
2 tbsp dark chocolate chips
1 tbsp chia seeds
1 tbsp pumpkin seeds
1 tbsp chopped walnuts

Preheat oven to 375. Mix all dry ingredients together. Blend wet ingredients together until smooth and then mix into dry until combined, if dough is too dry add more almond milk (dough will be fairly thick). Pour into greased loaf pan and sprinkle toppings on. Bake at 375 for 1 hour. Let loaf cool completely before removing from loaf pan.

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Follow the steps listed above and you will find yourself with a dense, brownie-like-loaf that tastes like dessert but is nutritious like a salad.

eatsfromtheoilpatch ♥

WIAW #18: Healthy -ish works for me.

Since I have no super quirky cheesy intro, I would like to start off today’s post with a thank-you. 

Thank-you to everyone who left kind words or even took the time out their day to read Sunday’s post. I began blogging because it was something to occupy my time and as it turns out, it has become a very helpful tool in finding my health and happiness again. Anyways, thanks again for reading my shit.

On that note, today’s What I Ate Wednesday theme pair’s nicely with Sunday’s post.

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Emphasis on the ISH. This is my jam. Seriously. It’s just what works for me.. A salad for lunch a glass bottle of wine for dinner. A slice of pizza with a gigantic salad. Sometimes a skinny latte at starbs, sometimes bring on the full fat.

You catch my vibe? Here is a look at some of the health-ish stuff I’ve been feasting on lately:

BREAKFAST:

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The return of the waffle. Not that they ever left but, I’ve been using a new recipe! New recipe coming next week..
Jokes. Here it is:

Buckwheat Waffle 
1 whole egg
1/2 mashed banana
1/4 cup buck wheat flour
2 tbsp North Coast Naturals vanilla protein powder
1/2 tbsp flax
dash of cinnamon and sea salt
1/4 tsp baking powder
a splash of almond milk if needed
blend all ingredients together and pour into waffle maker.

Top with sun butter and smashed blueberries. Yesssir.

SNACK..

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Milk + Cookies. THESE chocolate chip oatmeal quinoa cookies to be exact. So technically I did make some healthy-ier swaps ingredients wise but the fact of the matter is they still contain fat and sugar in them. Hence health-ish.

LUNCH..

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If I’m working usually I have a salad. If I’m not working usually I also have a salad. Here is a picture of a home made salad. Greens plus some carbs, cuz sometimes lettuce just doesn’t cut it {aka all the time}

DINNER..

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Sometimes you need comfort food. Relax, I put peas and roasted brussels in it people so it’s like, healthy. Annie’s white cheddar boxed mac and cheese. So freaking good.

DESSERT..

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So Delicious sugar free coconut milk ice cream + a cone. Omggggg does anyone eat these anymore? I know they’re like, not gluten free but they taste like christmas people. Ditch the bowl, say yes to the cone.

Until next wedz..

eatsfromtheoilpatch ♥

I Use To Want To Be Skinny.

I use to want to be skinny, now I just want to be happy.

I use to think that having a 6 pack dictated your self worth, now I know that the world does not give a sh*t if you have abs or not..

..the world only cares about what Justin Beiber and Miley Cyrus are doing.

I use to work hard to impress other people, now I work hard to impress myself.

I use to think that counting calories was the only way to live a healthy lifestyle, now I know the meaning of health encompasses much more than what we shovel into our pie holes.

I use to think I would never stop obsessing over food, I now know that with a little patience anything is possible.

I use to hate my muscly legs, now I am grateful they are strong enough to power me through my morning runs and work on my feet all day. 

I use to work at jobs that paid well but made me miserable, I quit those jobs and am now pursuing my dream.

I use to eat meat and veggies for every meal because I thought it would make me thin, only to come to realize I don’t even like eating meat that much.

I use to think that working out every day made you a better person, now I know that superficial things do not make you a better person.

I use to shy away from having a good time with my friends or punish myself for indulging every once in a while, now I jump at any opportunity to have some fun or celebrate with loved ones. Life is too short. 

I use to hide behind baggy shirts, now I wear clothes that flatter my curves.

I use to want to be skinny, now I just want to happy..

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& now I am happy.

eatsfromtheoilpatch ♥

{Chewy} Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Quinoa Cookies

Believe me when I say I have been on a cookie-baking-binge lately.

I bring them to work for quick energy pick me ups, I crumble them onto yogurt or cereal and I usually dip a couple into some steamed milk before bed. Cannot get enough. In honour of What I Ate Wednesday, I will be sharing my new fave cookie recipe with you.. this is very fitting since it’s pretty much all I eat during my busy day anyways.

PS frozen cookies > cookies left out on the counter. Do it.

Chewy Chocolate Chip Oatmeal Cookies

My DSLR photo skills have been less-than-par lately, so today’s photos are brought to you by the iPhone 5. Which, I might add has never let me down or gives me any grief.

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These cookies are:

+ chewy on the inside, crispy on the outside
+ vegan
+ refined sugar free
+ butter-less
+ protein packed via quinoa
+ addicting

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Makes 12 Cookies

1/2 cup spelt flour {sub flour of choice}
1/2 cup whole oats
1/2 cup puffed quinoa
1/4 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp baking soda
1/4 tsp sea salt
2 tbsp coconut sugar
2 tbsp baking stevia {use sweetener of choice}
1 flax egg {1 tbsp flax + 1/4 cup water}
1/2 tsp vanilla
1/4 cup coconut oil, melted
1/4 cup justin’s vanilla almond butter, melted {sub nut butter of choice}
{heaping} 1/4 cup mini chocolate chips

Preheat the oven to 350. Stir together all dry ingredients + chocolate chips, then add in wet. Dough will be fairly crumbly but it should pack together nice into a tbsp. If dough does not come together add a tbsp of water in one at a time. Scoop tbsp of dough onto a lined baking sheet a flatten with fork. Bake for 8 minutes.

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Serve with cold milk & try not to eat the whole batch in one sitting.

eatsfromtheoilpatch ♥

Five Things Friday #12: Hustlin’

TGIF.

I no longer understand the meaning of that. #ServerLife. I’m actually surprised that I was able to figure out yesterday was Thursday and write this post. The days/nights all kind of blur into one when your work days start at 5pm and end at 2am.

Not that I’m complaining though. I actually really enjoy serving. I love all the weirdos ahem, variety of folks that you get to interact with on a daily basis. I love the constant change over, I get bored very easily.

And I love the money, duh. 

Working two jobs plus finding time to exercise and shovel food into my mouth has been some what of a challenge..

Just kidding. As if I would never not make time to eat. HAH.

It’s true I am busy, but there’s always time for food. Here’s a look at my life lately as a hustler average two-job-working Canadian:

FIVE THINGS I ATE..

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1. Scrambled egg whites (ran out of eggs, sad times) with sliced avocado + homemade bircher muesli with bluebs. Loveeeee me some variety.

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2. Amy’s tomato soup + grilled chicken and avocado sammy. Loveeee dipping stuff into stuff.

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3. 5 ingredient vegan cookies from minimalist baker. Topped with a chunk of crack bark from costco. Loveeee to hate costco samples, gets me every time.

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4. Green smoothie with avocado for extra creamy-ness topped with granola, cacao nibs and cheerios. Genius. Loveeee going back for seconds on the toppings.

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5. My absolute fave dinner right now. Baked spaghetti squash with a side of garlic toast made with silver hills little big bread. Loveeee running low carb meals with BREAD. #badass

FIVE THINGS I’M LOVING..

1. THESE camo boyfriend pants from the gap. I want to wear them everyday, and by want I mean I wore them for 3 days straight.

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2. Epsom salts and 2 of my best buds. If I don’t soak in the tub after a dinner shift my brain will not shut off. PS – new current wine obsession, See Ya Later Ranch.

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3. THESE roman numeral tiffany rings. Mildly obsessed. T-minus 4 months till my birthday, just sayin.

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4. Summer-ish weather (#AlbertaProbz) ..warm enough to take the top off yippee.

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5. Running. I love getting lost with my thoughts while running. Trying to up my distance, shits hard.

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FIVE POSTS I LOVED..

How To Stop Comparing Your Food Choices via The Real Life RD

The Diet Common Denominator via Kath Eats

Banana Fosters Chia Pudding via Joanne Eats Well With Others

Double Chocolate Baked Breakfast Cookie via Chelsea’s Messy Apron

Peach Crumble Bars via immaeathat

What are your 5 summer eats?

eatsfromtheoilpatch ♥

{No Bake} Chia Cheerio Bars.

Have you ever gone grocery shopping on an empty stomach?

The worst.

Yesterday after work, against my better judgement, I proceeded to do this. I avoided the cereal isle like the plague but, after three drive byes I caved into the craving I couldn’t kick and picked up a box of original cheerios. 

I know what you’re thinking.. huh. She didn’t even get a junky kind? What kind of weirdo craves plain cheerios. Apparently me.

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And so, after standing around in my kitchen, staring off into the midst of the pantry trying to think of what to make for work snacks, I pulled out a few of my favourite ingredients and started mixing stuff together..

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and to my surprise this combination was perfect.  These bars take less than 5 minutes to prepare, no baking required and use ingredients that you for sure have lying around in your cupboards. They are a great snack option for kids lunches as they are peanut free but feel free to stir in any additions of your choice such as dried fruit, chocolate chips, etc.

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Makes 12 bars {or less depending on how you slice}

1/4 cup Justin’s vanilla almond butter
1/4 cup honey
2 cups cheerios
1 scoop North Coast Naturals vanilla protein powder
1 tbsp chia seeds

Heat almond butter and honey in a pan on the stove until it begins to bubble. Whisk in protein powder. Remove from heat and stir in remaining ingredients. Pour onto parchment lined pan and press into desired thickness. Freeze for at least 3 hours. Cut and wrap individually, store in freezer.

eatsfromtheoilpatch ♥

WIAW #17: Food Freedom {Then&Now}

Today is the day we stalk people’s blogs to see what they shoved in their faces, including my own.

And today, I am celebrating what I shoved in my face.

Celebrating not because it tasted good, not because it was all organic or not because I ate under a certain number of calories..

but celebrating because I just ate.

That may sound strange to some but to me, it is a huge accomplishment. To just eat.. eat whatever’s in my fridge, or what I can get my hands on in between shifts. To eat food at the restaurant I work at without freaking out about the ingredients, to eat vanilla flavoured yogurt because that’s what my boyfriend likes, to eat food that I didn’t entirely make from scratch.

All of these would have been nearly impossible to do a year ago without going into a binge cycle or punishing myself in some way for it.

So if you’re curious.. here’s what food freedom looks like to me:

BREAKFAST..

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NOW: Van’s GF Waffle toasted with jam and 1 egg+2 egg white scrambled topped with avocado and fresh cracked pepper. This is totes my fave breaky right now. I’ve always been a huge fan of variety and this meal keeps me full for hours. 

THEN: I would never have dreamed of buying frozen waffles and eating the whole egg?? Yeah right, it was egg whites only for this chick.

LUNCH..

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NOW: Breakfast for lunch. Vanilla greek yogurt topped with granola, almond butter and banana slices. Honoured my craving for something sweet post workout with this one.

THEN: I would not have honoured my craving and lunch would’ve consisted of a piece of meat and some vegetables, which of course would leave me unsatisfied which would then lead to me eating something sweet anyways. If I did eat yogurt it would have for sure been UNSWEETENED, I still prefer unsweetened but my boyfriend likes vanilla so we stocked up on it at costco.

DINNER..

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NOW: Grilled fish tacos with a side of avocado and fresh salsa. I am fortunate enough that the restaurant I work at has a lot of healthy options, it makes having a quick bite on shift really easy.

THEN: I would get the worst anxiety about going out for dinner with my friends and most of the time I would just decline. I hated the idea of not being able to accurately count the calories and not being able to control the ingredients.

BEDTIME SNACK..

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NOW: 2 slices of chocolate chip banana protein bread and a forever nuts tea latte. I get home off a night shift anywhere from 10pm – 2 am and usually am pretty hungry. As if I would give up my bed time snack for sleep.

THEN: No eating after 7 pm because that makes you fat, or at least that’s what I use to think. Now I know that nourishing your body when it tells you is hungry does not make you fat.

After gazing back at my first ever WIAW post I realize how far I have come. No more restrictive eating, no more fad diets, just nourishing my hungry body.

eatsfromtheoilpatch ♥

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